I just can't believe it's already the middle of July. Or that I've been back from my travels nearly as long as I was gone! I used to get really annoyed when time would zoom by, until I realized that by being fully present in the moment my days felt more fulfilling. Being present allows me to enjoy what I'm doing, while I'm doing it, rather than focusing on what I haven't accomplished.
I'm also learning to let go of comparing where I am to where I think I should be. Or worse yet to where others are. It's such a challenge because it seems every year when my birthday rolls around I can't help but think, "Geez I really didn't think I'd be here at this point in my life." I have the hardest time breaking free from what I've been programmed to believe are appropriate accomplishments by the time one is 30, 35, 40, etc.
So at the tender age of 44, I'm finally realizing that so much of what I used to think was important just doesn't matter. Ever since I went through my divorce it's as if I've been on a mission to prove that I'm strong and that I can take care of myself. These past two years I've literally been forced to learn humility. I've had to reach out and ask for help. I've had to lean on my parents, my friends and even complete strangers. It has been the hardest lesson of my life, and yet it has opened me up to genuinely trusting again.
I am blessed to be surrounded by amazing people who are willing to support me. Who believe in me, sometimes even more than I believe in myself.
