Going Digital

I have a tendency to be in my head. Analytical. A thinker rather than a feeler. Blame it on my parents, blame it on being a Gemini (air sign, likes to be in the clouds rather than down here on Earth), or blame it on my tomboy nature. I've always liked being in my head and I feel rather comfortable there. Much easier than the mushy feeling stuff!

Of course it was working fine for me until my energy started to shift. As I started to wake up to the beauty of embracing my feminine energy, I realized it was time to step into fully opening my heart if I was going to experience real joy during this lifetime. It's time for me to slow down and feel everything. How my words affect those around me. The impact of the choices I make. The vibration of words spoken to me.

I was really doing pretty well at it all until the beginning of the year. You see I made a major change in my life...I decided to actually settle in to living in a place without wheels! An actual home with walls and a yard and, ugh, responsibility. That's when fear reared it's lovely head and, as my good friend Kent likes to put it, I went digital. Right back into my head. Overriding the fear with logic. Each scary thought that popped into my head I worked through, figured out, solved. But never did I allow myself to feel the fear.

You see when I slow down and actually FEEL what is happening the grip loosens. Fear loses its bite. It dissipates. So what happens when I go digital? Well, it's basically like I've chased myself to the edge of a cliff and I can't see anyway out. Rather than working in partnership with Spirit I am left to struggle on my own. I can't manifest so much as a parking space let alone a prosperous business! Why? Because I'm not grounded and my heart chakra is on lock-down.

Usually I'm pretty darn good at recognizing that I've Gone Digital, but this time it took Kent to not-so-gently point it out to me. I ignored all the signs. The dwindling clients, the parking ticket, the speeding ticket, the back-to-back colds (even though I honestly NEVER get sick).

The good news is I'm back on track! I allowed myself to feel the fear and then I allowed myself to feel supported. I sat still and allowed my heart chakra to blossom a large, glorious bloom! And guess what? New clients are scheduling appointments, I easily manifested the desk I've been searching months to find and I am overflowing with confidence about what's next on my journey. Ahhh, sure feels good!